Ahhhhhhhh good morning..... last night was amazing. Worked my ass off yesterday then had a couple blue moons with my aunt and watched fear, then a movie from the 30's. Her house is so quaint and nice and relaxing. I took a shower because I was all dirty and gross from working in the church all day and the soap she let me use I am officially obsessed with. It's called sugared spruce by a company called Noel, apparently you can get them at TJ maxx.... hells to the yea, made me feel like a brand new person.

Last night I decided if you feel like something is wrong in your heart or your intuition, its going to be. I'm just really sick of lame excuses from guys or how things change, its like something can be so awesome and exciting and dwindle into nothing like an amber going out. I know rejection hurts and I accept that but an adult male and an adult female need to be able to tell one another if their not feeling that person, me personally I would rather do it face to face if not at least the on phone (not through lame ass texting) however I didn't have the chance to do that so I ended something last night that I really felt in my heart because I just had a feeling he wasn't a very good guy who has probably hurt a lot of people/girls, and I'd rather not waste anytime on that anymore because I'm getting my act together and I need family friends and potentially a man around me that builds me up and that I can build up, and to not have to question something so ridiculous like if he is going to call..... that's pathetic on my part and his.

Whhaatteeevvveerrr..... another one bites the dust, it just made me sad because I really was hopeful, Oh well God will give me what I need, and I should only be trusting in that, not what I wish would/should happen.

And on that note I would like to share that gets me by is Peter 5;7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

So that is what I'm gunna do... YO.